scrap #3

never knew the beauty to be found
in the absence of pain
always thought i was prettiest
when i was at my most dangerous

hold still,
it's all rushing in
my heart stops
i'm feeling again

i want to open myself up to the ground
let the rain fill every hollow of my bones,
i'm so full up
words can only diminish this

hold still,
let it breathe
i'm finding everything i forgot that i could be