on nights like these, i hate myself a little bit

I hate myself for stealing money from my mother when she's done so much for me.
I hate myself for not being able to have a good time when I'm sober, and I hate everyone else for knowing it.
I hate myself for missing a day of birth control.
I hate myself for getting all caught up in a boy when I was adamant about staying completely single and being a charter member of 'The Box'.
I hate myself for eating too many carbs today, and skipping the gym, just asking for my old body to come back.
I hate myself.

How was your evening?